I am a mostly open book. Mostly open. I am sometimes a very private person. This is a list of things that I am private about and why.
- My books – I collect books, stilettos and memories. I LOVE showing off shoes that I buy. I regularly write about most of my life. My books though aren’t something I like to share with people. Might be all the books that I have let friends borrow that they never returned that caused me to stop sharing. Might be the looks that people have given me when they see what I am reading. Might be how unnatural it felt to use Goodreads. Yup. I think it was that! Seeing everything that people were reading made me feel like a Peeping Tom. Books are an escape for me. They give me life. They bring me joy. I don’t want to share that private world of joy with people. I want to keep all the euphoria that books bring me to myself. Yes, I want to keep silent about most of the books that are a part of my life.
- My home – I don’t let too many people INTO my home. If I invite you into my home then I really respect you and consider you a trusted friend. I won’t let just anyone into my home because frankly I don’t want just any energy being brought into my home. The more I write the more I become protective of the energy inside my house. I no longer host regular dinner parties. I am becoming so protective of my home that when friends talk about visiting me here I become distant or just flat out say I don’t want company. I’ve even lied to a few friends because I NEED a private place…just me, the family I created, and our dog. That’s all I can handle here right now. I’m to the point where I won’t even Twitpic photos taken in the house unless they are of my kitchen or our homeschool classroom area. Yes. I. Am. Weird.
- Secrets friends share – I am most private about the secrets that my friends have shared with me. I guard these more than my books or even my home. I have become a bottomless vault of secrets where my friends make frequent deposits. These secrets I guard with my life! I am unwilling to share with one friend details of my friendship with another friend. I am also quick to get rid of you as a friend if you tell secrets friends have told you or if you tell me details of your friendships with others that I maybe shouldn’t know. Strong lasting friendships are the only way I could get through life so I believe in showing my friends respect by keeping their secrets until I die.
I am not private about much but what I am private about I am REALLY private about. Every woman should be entitled to some privacy especially ones that share mostly everything.
