posts tagged ‘emotional health’

  1. find a happy place

    February 3, 2012 by Lidia-Anain

    Having feelings of wanting to run far far away. Feeling completely restless. So incredibly restless that I cannot study or get much done on the novel that I should be editing or the reading I need to do for this or that. The feelings of restlessness are quickly followed by anger and I don’t like myself when I become that person. The anger is followed by an emptiness and overbearing feelings of guilt. I don’t know what to do to make these feelings go away.

    I know that I’ve hit a wall. A big wall that is going to take a lot of work to break through. I know exactly where the disconnect is within me and I also know what the internal and external things I need to change to make my life flow again are. *Seeing* the problems clearly doesn’t make them any better, any easier or any less painful. Sometimes in the seeing is where the most pain resides; where feelings have the most power and I don’t know what to do to make these feelings go away!
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  2. romantic allure of suicide

    April 25, 2011 by Lidia-Anain

    Death eventually comes for each and all of us. For some of us it will come peacefully in the night on a night so far into our days that once our family and friends hear of our passing they will comment on what a long life we lived. For others death will be the final gift from a debilitating disease that just wanted to keep on giving. Some will meet death unexpectedly through some unforeseen accident that takes their life before it was time. Death seems to operate on a schedule that he reveals to no one but then again there are those of us that cheat death the pleasure of pulling the life out of us by doing it on our own terms. For some people suicide is the only way out… (more…)

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  3. Even Sex Positivity Should Have Some Rules by Jamilah Lemieux

    March 3, 2011 by Jamilah Lemieux

    As you likely know already, sex positivity is a concept that is embraced by many of us who advocate for gender and sexual equality. It basically means that we wish to create spaces in which people are free to conduct their sexual lives in the ways that they see fit without judgment. The fact that women are still subject to many sexual double standards and are victimized by a global rape culture makes the need for sex positivity a great one and your feminist friends out here are trying to make it a more pervasive concept. It’s no good if we’re the only ones buying in; sex positivity can’t simply exist in small, counter cultural pockets- it needs globalization. (more…)

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  4. thoughts are the demons who own me

    September 8, 2010 by Lidia-Anain

    Have you ever been sick? Extremely sick to the point where you can’t do anything for yourself? Depression is that sickness for many of us, a dark cloud that blows into our heads which makes living fuzzy, it distracts us as it takes over each and every single cell in our bodies until we become paralyzed. Once it paralyzes it starts taunting us with all the things we could do if it hadn’t immobilized us. The worst part is that there is absolutely nothing we can do to escape it other than wait for the cloud to drift past us. I have been in and out of this haze for the last couple of weeks and today I have decided that I cannot go on like this; waiting is no longer an option for me. I want to live. (more…)

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