I’m trying to be a better person everyday, little by little. I’m pretty flawed and some of those flaws are deep into my foundation, so this is going to be a massive and delicate operation. I don’t want to change what makes me Lidia-Anain just make Lidia-Anain a better person…a person more valuable to society. So, this operation began with truly defining what is just part of me, what are my flaws and what are those things I can’t change. God is opening up my eyes.
I know that some of what others call “flaws” are my idiosyncrasies. I like MANY of my idiosyncrasies. I like how my OCD has created a lovely web that helps me maintain a perfectly shiny home and most of my goals on track. Yes, my OCD makes me a little hard to live with at times but doesn’t everyone LOVE the smell of Rose Passion Fabuloso? Speaking of passion…I like how passionate I am about things and how that passion causes me to react boldly without second thought. Yes, that has led to me saying or doing something that could have been said or done better. Yet, that passion I KNOW would be what comes to surface during a FIGHT OR FLIGHT moment that could save the life of someone I love. These are just two of some of my idiosyncrasies but what are my flaws?
I sat and sat and sat to figure out what was THE ABSOLUTE WORSE THING LIDIA-ANAIN DOES? I had to sit so long because like I said I’m very flawed so there were a lot of things that popped to mind next one always worse than one before. I came up with the fact that I am INTOLERANT of other people. This became my main focus on how to better myself to be A LOT more tolerant of others.
In working towards being kind to others that I would normally react like a bitch to I’ve noticed that there are some things I just can’t change about me. Deep in my core because of how I was raised, because of life experiences and because some people are just too far removed from my self-truths…there will ALWAYS be people who make my blood BOIL.
Here are the 5 Personality Types Lidia-Anain cannot understand and therefore has chosen to dislike OPENLY:
5. People Who Love Animals More Than They Love Other People: I’m sorry, I just can’t stand you if you are constantly spewing about animal rights but you will pass homeless people without ever speaking to one and seeing if you can help them somehow. I’m sorry, that I think there is a special place in hell for women who hate children but call their dogs their babies. I’m sorry, if I would rather kick a dog before I even kick you’re stupid non-priority having ass!
4. The EXTREMELY Liberal or The EXTREMELY Conservative Douchebags: I’m sorry, I just don’t think that the world can be one sided. Things are usually a shade of grey not much is black or white, except the current blah design of this site. I’m sorry, if I want women to have the right to have abortions but that I personally am against abortions (except rape/incest/birth defect cases). I’m sorry that I think second trimester abortions should be BANNED because I think they are MURDER. I’m sorry, for the fact that I WANT religions taught in school or at least more morals put back into lessons. I’m sorry, if some of my beliefs are left while still being right.
3. Passive-Aggressive People: I’m sorry that you can’t come out clearly and say what you mean. I’m sorry that you react in a way that only makes you seem unintelligent and incapable of standing your ground in a debate. I’m sorry that I can’t understand why you would beat around the bush instead of taking the bull by the horns. What I am MOST sorry for is that you being passive-aggressive about situations hinders YOUR growth and MINE. If I do or say something that you dislike please let me know. If I do or say something that YOU think I could do or say better let me know I enjoy intellectual growth. I’m extremely sorry sometimes that the passive-aggressive fuckers LOVE twitter as their medium to relay passive-aggressive messages to others (which in itself is another post).
2. Intentional Liars: The VIP in Hell is reserved for those who intentionally lie and mislead others. We all lie from time to time. There are times even when a victimless lie is needed to save your own ass. I just DISLIKE punk ass people who deliberately mislead and lie to others in friendship, business or love. There is no winning when one person enters a relationship with another person with the intent to mislead/deceive. I’m sorry for the wrath of HELL on Earth that I will bring down on your ass when I find out that you INTENTIONALLY mislead/deceived me! You didn’t respect me enough to give me the facts to make an informed decision I won’t respect you enough NOT to be your judge and jury!
1. People Who Hurt Children: These are the people who I will say I HATE! YES, these people make me feel hostile! All the animosity in my soul is reserved for these people. Anyone who abuses a child should be HUNG immediately! I don’t believe in second chances for child molesters/kidnappers/murderers! I wish we could turn those that hurt or kill a child over to the family of the child for them to dismember that person. If this makes me evil then let me burn in hell for it. I am unwilling to feel empathy for these people. I ESPECIALLY HATE…mothers that hurt or kill their OWN children. Children are to be protected by EVERYONE in society and as a society we should condemn and ostracize those that don’t value the gift that children truly are.
I realize that even though the above five personalities will probably never get any empathy from me there are ways I can still dislike them and be a better person. I could start by helping in facets that those mentioned above wouldn’t.
- Helping the homeless/poor. When I think about this one I have to say my focus would be in helping poor women and their children.
- Fighting for laws that are more to the center that I think are more fair. Laws that we can all see as fair yet strong and morally sound.
- Instead of being upset when someone addresses me in a passive-aggressive manner ask them why they choose to address me like that. Have an open non-confrontational conversation about it and see where it leads. Hopefully, it will lead to two people growing from it.
- Instead of reacting to those that deceive me (friendship, business or love) cut them out of my life and pray for them and encourage others to do the same when it happens to them. When these people no longer have anyone to turn to they may change or die a lonely existence.
- I think the most important thing I want to do about making sure children aren’t hurt is eventually, adopting a child or children and providing them a chance at a safe and happy home life. I also want to work towards becoming more knowledgeable about laws pertaining to children’s rights.
I’m far from perfect and I will never be tolerant of some but God showed me that if I’m not part of the solution then I am as awful as those I am judgmental of!
