It’s Wednesday and although I planned to unveil one of those very hidden erotic stories today I find myself in a reflective mood with no desire to edit erotica. This week started like most others, Monday usually equals sending out client contracts, invoices and homework. Well, it started like that but by mid-afternoon I felt completely depressed, lost and disappointed with life and the state of this world. My precious Kindergartener, who by the way turns five this Friday, told me during our walk home that being brown made him sick.
When I questioned him further he said his color made him ugly. This was coming from my son I affectionately call Hollywood because he has never had any problems with his confidence and in fact might need some modesty lessons. THIS was a very new thing for me coming from him. After more prodding he said that a boy at school had been saying that he was ugly because he was brown. Although, I do think some teasing is normal and part of growing up that particular school has had a problem with children of color being teased by white children and the staff doing very little to prevent it. Once again out of lack of confidence in a school that is within a neighborhood where some neighbors do not welcome the sight of families like mine I decided that the best choice for my sons was to homeschool through CAVA.
NO! That was not my plan at all for this school year but it was now or never because CAVA starts Monday. I did not want to do that at all but sometimes what we want and what we need are not aligned. I need my sons to be in a healthy learning environment that produces happy educated children. I will have to figure out how to homeschool three boys while running my business, that is finally really booming. I’ll have to create more time in my day because I refuse to give up on having it all and doing it all. There might be days where I will fall short. There will be times when something has to give causing me to lose a battle or two but I will win the war.
I don’t have all the answers, yet, but I do know the Kings, my business, and I will all be better than alright! =)
I’m making a commitment to you and to my sanity to continue to post regularly each week on Wednesday. It amazes me that on average one hundred people visit this site daily. I am eternally grateful for you! I feel honored that you here reading my words. ToxicEuphoria is the best description of my life and times. You being here helps me realize that I am not alone in the ups and downs. Thank You!
